Yet another day....

finally it is 10 plus i think i can go sleep... so bored at home now tv sux nothing nice to watch lei haiz.... damn sian.. wanted to go out.. but i dunno where to go... realise everything is $$$$$ i dun wan to be control by it.. but some how it is controling me.. weather i go out or not $$ makes the decision whether i go bike lessons? $$ makes the decision... i wanna work.. i am not a slacker... but why does time make me so constraint i refuse really refuse to go back to boss... i dunno y... i feel so eeeeeee than like go back there work... hate the way shift works eats our time.... sianzzzzz... but i yet hope for some kind of short job.. crappy.. i dunno la.. see how it goes.. sianzzzzz haizzzz see how ba sian of life.... things are going really slow now.. dunno wat to do.. hmmzzz just have to pray... i guess she sleeping liao..... lucky never go out also i can feel her tiredness in me i dunno y... so near yet so far....... i must hold on tite cant let go as a guy i have to hold on the odds... my mom is suffering and i got to do something about it... i dun care... there must be some sort of way..... gotta h9ope and pray hard..... well i think i go and sleep early... dunno wat to do... bored....