Life...

been quite long.. on this boring sunday afternoon.. i have nothing to do but blog.. not your fault dear.. but interesting thing is i read richie's blog ya than somethings hit onto me.. my life is surround by just u dear.. realise all my friends are busy... the ppl i call brothers and buddies does not exist anymore.. is it becos of the malaysia happenings?? recalling back well really stuoid matter but now ppl are starting to move on.. and i could say i am moving on.. but well not together with everybody.. get it? feels like i am moving on alone.. usually my weekends will be boring.. but still will be at least outside with my buddies i used to have.. quite sad.. life have changed.. ppl change.. did i change? dunno.. read richies blog werid is that i can feel how he feels maybe becos we are of the same age? or maybe i was in that position before.. i do hope he can find some nice friends or sign up for something to keep himself occipuied... i miss my poly friends.. read diana's blog.. i can feel that sense of lonliness she is facing.. drowning her pain in work.. and she is just so strong.. and as for dunlin i think she has finally found her world.. come to think of it.. i am really happy for me! than during a point of time when i was with them i made good decisions.. it change my life and now i met her.. now i dunno wat to do.. should i find time to get back my friends? meet up with them? but how? it's weird! haha well slowly ba.. i also thinking of my future.. i am so messed up but i did not know.. becos i amjust too busy in army.. even if i am free in camp.. i can do nothing.. so life is really cruel.. it is either u make it or break it.. my camp there is ppl really going mad and ending up in mental hospital.. but well depends on individual.. i guess... anyway ya recently also know that my family in a small finacial crisis hope will tide over soon.. for me! i am always in a finacial crisis.. really tired of this kind of life.. but i am determnind really determind to stop this debts and suayness.. life is going smooth other than my social life.. but i know 1 day will get over it quite soon.. mix emotions and confusion is wat i have now.. dunno wan to go uni also anot.. it is like really hard to decide.. haizzz ok lar i stop here but funnily i wish i caould just type more.. i have so much things in mind but my mind is not composed enough to set things straight.. just wish everyone.. my die hard buddies, sec + poly + primary + army + just know friends a good life and hope to meet up soon k! peace..