Update..

dear... sorry about today that i have made u tear today.. i was just playing ard..but i also feel the pain.. i dunno wat the future holds for us but i am glad i made a choice in life and that is going after u and realising how love can be such sweetness instead of bitterness of all the pass has brought to me.... having reuion dinner wif u was great.. i lost precious friends.. but i am glad i still have u to hold me together.. ok i think i shall update some things.. finally my ippt is improving.. first is i got a silver at long last.. and my soc i have no problems other than it is shag... hmmzzz army life is sian and being in that particular unit.. it is full of risk.. many a times i tell myself to give it up.. becos i am not up to it.. but i am starting to prove myself wrong.. becos i cannot stop training myself up.. i got to learn how to protect how to serve so i can protect my love ones... esp her and my family...oh ya ns life is poor.. so broke pay is bearly enough.. notbecos i spend too much becos i got bills than estimate at least 120 every time... than got to save up summore.. wanna get a small bike.. like scooter or somthing like that.. just for transport.. heehee anyway got to train more.. hopefully later i will kick my butt to go jog ard... so many things happened last year.. hope that this year will turn out better.. anyway well maybe later will blog again... feeling bad.. made her cry.. but i got a surprise for her.. abit ex but that is wat i can afford.. bloody NS pay... v-day also in field camp.. haizzz life sux without her.. esp now.. y am i feeling so... u ask me? i dunno just feel that way.. abit like faggot.. but well guess the pit of love is just a bottomless pit.. u will unknowingly fall deeper and deeper till it is too late to remedy... but u will fall happily.. lol.... ok till another time..