finally back!!

HALOW PPL!!!! finally back from field camp and range... wah lao very tiring.. but i lost i think 7 kg.. now i 68 kg... went in was 75 kg... tsk tsk... so fat!!! now i dunno really know wat to blog becos wat i do inside the camp is not supposed to be revealed so hmmz tell u all i book out do wat.. first hmmzz book out cannot meet her.. CRAPPY RITE!!! but i am fine wif it.. but i realise how much i been wanting to see her... than in monday i went to meet her for breadfast.. we both were having insecurites.. but we talked it out.. i am very glad she shared it wif me.. girls like her this few days are extint but i manage to find an antique with priceless value.. than after that picked her up from school than we watch a korean movie i have been wanting to see.. damn thing was that part of the movie brought back bad memories for her.. she sobbed.. i was like F*** stupid show.. my heart when crashing downwards even after she recovered.. my heart was still aching.. but i can feel she is growing up and getting stronger.. well that's my girl.. than we had yoshinoya with heavy moods.. was a quiet dinner.. she did not eat mouch though... seeing her like that i was about to slap mysekf in the face.. been a long time since i see her so sad... anyway we headed home.. looking at the time it was still early.. we sit down at her playground to chat.. we talked about the insecurities we had.. she cried and i cried.. yes i FREAKING TEARED.. in my teenage life i never cried.. even how heavy the tears are it never falled.. this time it did.. i wonder was it a sign.. she is the first girl in my whole condemning relationship life made me tear.. have i fallen too deeply? she is worth all my love attention and tender loving care.. but why do i feel so weak before her... i saw her the first time afetr 2 weeks my plam became sweaty.. hmmzz i think u also have realise that... rite while holding my hand... wonder how and wonder why.. than i have receive news DUNLIN my dear firend is going to get married i was like WTF!!! so fast!!! there goes a hole in my wallet... but the idea of marriage suddenly struck me too.. but i am not that crazy becos i and she are still young.. the road is still long.. but i wonder how would be like if we were to get married? than my mind wondered to silly things cute things and arguments.. and best picture.. we both slacking on the couch wif the aircon on and tibits infront of the tv spending our weekend indoors... hahazz qquite nice rite?... i guess i have to settle my problems first and get a decent job and consider i wanna get a degree anot.. and just to tell her that i think our relationship will be a very long 1.. heehee and u have not tell me at wat age u think u wanna get settled down wor!!! i just asking onli la .. dun go thinking "we haven been though a year yet!" hahazz i think u know wat i am trying to say.. hahazz ok ok enough of this crap.. hmmzzz where was i? hmmzz oh ya playground cried and blah blah blah.. after all that was done.. we talked and i missed the last bus lol!! i purposly wan i think she coould have figured it out.. i just wanna spend more time wif her but i also know she was tired so shortly ard 12 plus i left taxi ride 13 bucks.. i find it rather cheap.. for just an extra hour wif her.. i may be broke and i should not spend money like that.. but oh well.. it was worth it.. that is wat i got to say.. hmmzzz ya that that is about it.. today was abit crappy whne to meet dunlin pass her the book ate KFC!! so long never eat le.. than she accompany to buy those cheap snacks that i had to bring to camp.. heeheee than well i headed home and slack till now.. packed my back folded my no 4 now waiting for my mom to bring home dinner... than i can bath and go and it is another week of sianness... argh!!! friday nite going to tekong to stay again.. this sat burn.. i do hope i see her this coming sat.. i think i am a goner.. she has done something to me that i cant explain.. and she is my drug i got to see her hug her thna i will be contented... ok lar i will stop here becos i got to blog in another place lol.. heheee hints... bye ppl.. see u next week if i got time to blog again...