POP!!!???

well.. hmmzz POP liao!!! well not as excited as i tot i was.. instead i was more excitied about the book out... but guess things did not go smooth.. wait as in hmmzz the POP was smooth.. instead so smooth that the parade ended earlier than usual... ya i think maybe becos she was not there.... to make matters worst every single 1 asking where was she.. but i had to understand.. she is busy.. hmmzz it is not the time for attention instead after yesterday i realise how mush she need someone to talk too.. and yes she cried... well but lucky later on it turn well made her laugh and smile.. but i dunno wat to do at the point of time.. i guess i brought her to the wrong place to talk.. but i think she has to learn about the facts and i really can she how stress she is now... i am too facing the shit she is onli thing i can take it better.. becos well i am used to it? or rather i know how to handle it.. yes than later on we had sushi.. just 8 plates and we were gone!! we were full.. dun understand i think my stomach has shrunk..anyway she also was shopping for a bottom.. nothing caught her eye.. was tempted to buy the bottom for her if she found 1.. but well i think i got other things in mind for her.. gotta save.. hahahazzz haiz.. after dinner we did a quick shop to get her friend a present... than we went super star... i feel the mood wasnt there all day long.. i should have been more decisive to ask her to rest.. we did not watch movie.. we i actually quite given up upon.. tix always sold out.. BLAH.... crappy.. but i also realise it was not a day again to watch movie... hmmzzz than reach superstar.. lost my brothers cap.. crappy lei i even check the cab.. haizz.. anyway it was also 1 of my favourite ones.. but well if it was meant to be than ti shall be lost.. heehee than at superstar can see she was tired.. usually she will like hog the mic.. but she onli sang a few songs.. but wat i was happy is that she hug me again and again.. i miss that feeling... and after that she slept on my lap.. she was sound asleep even they were so damn noisy hahazz but well ok lar.. than i also took a quick nap.. looking her sleep with such peacefulness in a place like that.. i was relieved i think... she slept for an hour i was also intending to ask her to leave already cannot bear her to sleep like that.. might as well go home and sleep.. she deserves a good rest so i think today i may not meet her... she is very occupied wif her stuff.. the onli thing i can do is give her some time.. and i got a feeling today she is lazy to go out too.. haiz... past 2 weeks we had not have a proper date.. crap.. but well ok la.. now thinking i should go down town to suntec to see the it fare or just go sim lim.. i want to help her settle her step mom stuff so that her step mom does not pest her and can leave her alone... haiz wat should i do? hmmzzz well i dunno.. see how it goes ba i skipped church again.. this is no good.. i guess my spritual life is going down.. but well i will see that hopefully will get back up on my feet and be even more discipline.. POP liao no off day if not confirm will go de.. haixzzz her time and my time always clashes.. why!!! i dun blame her i dun blame GOD! but well i think this is to test us.. this coming week will be our 11th month.. next would be 1 year le.. i wonder we can get free time together anot.. i know hse is shui bian.. and i am shui bian.. but it feel that it is impt for the both of us? and that though we are shuii bian we should not make it so shui shui bian bian?hahazz out of point nvm.. haizzz think i will end here.. not a good day to blog anyway.. i really cannot gather my tots.. so many things so little time.. anyway i miss her so much.. how i wish she is here beside me now.. hugzzzzz.. ok la gtg le.. sianzzzzzzzzz