Lonely patatic nite,,,,

it's friday.. i'm home frome training.. it's tough.. one of the more tough that maybe i have every gone tru or will be going tru.. though it is slack.. that is the onli consolling thing i can think of... now i am reaching to a cross road.. the decision is very critical... and so many decisions i got to think of.. haizzz so sad.. stressed.. money education and job.... these are the things that are constantly revolving tru my mind.. how i wish i had struck 4d or sumthing like that or earn a fast quick buck a small sum to tide the problems dwn... now as i am typing i'm also tired.. now 11.30 onli.. and got test tomolo also.. haizzzzzz.. why like that!!! i miss someone.. yes that one..haiz.sighzzzzzzzzzzzzz why like that.. but never knew she was so busy and stressed too.. i trying to help... but could not be in much help.. haizzz hope we also can tide tru this period of time... jaa.. not in the mood to type le.. cannot think if crap to even type also... sometimes i see myself on the outside happy... but yet lonely and sad..... wat do i wan? i wan nothing....