CNY has passed...

Happy new year everyone... so fast and new year has pass by..it was a good new year.. hang baos big big.. most impt is that i had the company of a loved one tru out the new year.. and i got a new harddisk for V day... i know it is unromantic or wat so ever but the the tot of it is already romantic.. not every guy can get wat u have given me dear... i treasure our relationship we have.. i'm very attached to u.. and i dunno wat i can do to keep u to myself. but this few days were great.. fun laughther peace and joy and love....but thinking of the future makes me stressed.. i so want to move ahead yet unable due to time and money.. how? v day is this week.. i really have not much idea on this coming week.. ahhhhhhhhhh... worriessssssssssssszzzzzzzzzz... anyway small matter.. now that CNY is ovwe hoping that everything can swiftly go by adn smoothly... very hard u know.. life is getting harder as the dayes passed by.. jobs not easy to find esp good paying ones.. and recently wanna ride scooter but no money to buy... :( dunno how... so many things to buy but so little time... and money.. heh heh... feel so disorganise and unmotivated.. how am i going to excel when i'm in this state pls something push me and that i can move forward and work hard.. May GOD guide me once again.. i have been straying away from my religon or rather my church.. cos i dun fell home anymore. ppl there has changed.i'm more of a stranger than friend.. fellowship has never been the same.. commitment is now rather a chore.. but i dun wanna give up my religon cos i believe in it.. but it is hard to just go to church and be a nobody there... and with the recent events it is pulling me away from GOD.. just hope that everything will be fine as the days go by....shall stop here.. recently when i blog i'm have mixed emotions.. wat is happening to me lei??? maybe i'm still trying to find myself.. abd in this search.. i will than find the meaning of living..