tekong and me...

back from my 5 day training from tekong.. have not recovered and have bad rashes all over.. it is really good to be back.. tired is the work that best decribe me now.. wanna sleep but there is so much things that i have not done and is yet to be done.. but at least i met my poly buds.. diana and dunlin.. well really time has passed really fast.. diana moving on dunlin moving on. i am moving too but in a slow way.. can't help to think of my future.. i dunno wat to do.. how am i to survive.. but i shall let God let me the way.. let him take my hand and guide me.. becos i am lost.. anyway currently in ns so there is nothing much i can do also.. anyway singapore a very boring place le.. what is there that i have not seen or enjoyed.. what have i not explored or tasted.. not sure.. well life is boring... waiting for it to slip pass me.. later shall meet roger my bro that i yet to seen for afew months.. seems like the brotherhood is torn due to me.. well hope things will start to pick up.. when i can find the time.. once my primary objective is met.. that is to settle some finacial problems... yeah... who have i not met yet.. actually alot of ppl.. next week should meet my sec school buds for steam boat.. sounds good man... looking forward to it.. and ya concern for miss crappy.. worried for her.. deep down inside me i know i felt it last nite.. i got to work hard i wanna protect her.. can see she is living within her means.. pains to see her like that.. i feel that she is deprived of basic nesscary stuff.. and i will stop complaining to myself abt money matters.. becos i am just being selfish.. well but she is rite i do spend money wrongly at times.. but just that some times when we are walking pass the shop i just am waiting her eagerness to buy.. so taht i can buy for her.. but little that i know her resistance to being spendtrift is very high.. i really appreciate the little things she does.. like example missing her tv show last nite just to wonder wif me to wait for dunlin and diana... well i got to save up.. shall learn driving and go on holiday using SAF money!! muahaha 9 months already in army.. perspective so some stuff have changed... i realise some things abt me that i dun usually project in myself.. i used to be a follower.. now i shall lead my own life.... miss some of my friends too.. miss playing mahjong or daidee wif them.. 1 days ba.. guess i shall blog till here.. hope brunei will faster end.. and wat should i get her for or do for her for our anniversary? hmmzz may nothing? see how it goes ba...